Infertility

Since my husband and I have been trying to conceive (TTC as they call it) there is a thought that pops into my head at least once every day... what if we can't have a biological child? There is a blog I read today about a couple who have been TTC for 2 years and have recently started IVF after failed attempts at fertility treatments. Both are from very religious families and are devout Christians. So why are they unable to have a child of their own? It terrifies me. I think about how excited and hopeful my husband and I are... I am sure this woman and her husband were the same way in the begining, not realizing what lie ahead of them.

Then I thought of this... maybe God makes certain women infertile, inspite of their desire to have children... because he knows there are going to be unfit mothers who do not want their babies? Maybe he creates certain women especially to take care of these "unwanted" children? God makes each one of us special. He gives each one of us a special purpose in life. One of my purposes is to be a nurse... to take care of the sick, to deal with blood that may make some queesy, to perform mathematical calculations that others cannot comprehend, to understand health and illness, to rehabilitate, to heal. My purpose is also to be a wife, and one day a mother. If Jimmy and I can't have a child of our own, I will know that it is our purpose to care for someone else's, and to show that child every ounce of love that we have been saving up for our own.

I pray that all women out there dealing with infertility, who are spending large sums of money on IVF and infirtility treatments, can realize this and come to terms with God's purpose for them.

Free day

Today is my first free day in about 3 weeks. By free, I mean no homework... I still have managed to pack the day full with stuff to do. I cleaned out the guest room closet because we are going to install a better closet system in there with more shelving, so we can store more in there. Right now we just have use of the one, standard shelf and it is literally packed... in the mean time, the bottom is completely empty, wasted space. I am using a closet system that I bought for the closet in my old room at my parents house. I am going to Target this afternoon to get some storage bins so we can store more stuff in the garage. We are going to get a shelving system for the garage tomorrow, I believe. My husband has been so wonderful helping me do all of these things on his spring break! He cleaned out the garage yesterday, cooked dinner AND a desert... and he came with me to babysit a friend's little 2-year old boy (I figure Jimmy needs the experience :o).

Anyway, I am going to the doc's with my dad today. He got some blood work a few weeks ago that came back showing his fasting blood glucose was very high, so I assume they will be telling him he is diabetic today and I want to be there for moral support as well as be able to hear everything the doctor tells him so I can make sure he sticks to whatever routine they put him on. It is the controlling nurse side of me that needs to be involved :o) He has had all the signs and symptoms of diabetes... polyuria (peeing a lot, especially at night), polydipsia (being thirsty a lot) and polyphagia (drinking a lot of water). He also gets jittery which is characteristic of low and high blood sugar, he has lost about 20lbs for no reason and his vision is getting worse. My poor daddy!

While I wait I am looking at JC Penney's online at their baby furniture. I am REALLY impressed. They have a ton of adorable, solid wood baby furniture that got excellent reviews, and while it is pricier than what I would expect from JC Penney I think it would be worth it. Here are a couple of my favorite sets:
This dresser/changing table would actually be in the dark color like the matching crib shown below, but they didn't have a picture of it in the dark wood.


And here is my favorite set, I think:

The crib is in the darker, espresso color and the dresser/changer is in the "coffee" color.

Which set do you like best?

Wedding slideshow

A picture slide show I made from our wedding.

This is why I need a baby

This is how I spend my free time when Jimmy isn't home...

Bella has learned to howl

Cutest dog ever!

Pretty Song

The song that plays when you come to my page is just about the best song I have ever heard. Here are the lyrics:

I'm A Superman Thanks To Lois Lane
Kissed Away My Problems When I Went Insane
Fished Me From The Bottom When I Lost My Name
Gave Me Something I Could Live For (Something I Could Live For)
And Everybody Wonders What's The Change
They Don't Recognize Me Cause I Got So Much To Say
And I Never Thought That Anyone Could Love Someone
So Much That They Give Up On Everything

[Chorus:]
I Will Be There To Take Care Of You
I Will Be There When You Cry Babe
I Will Be There When You Need Someone To Tell You
That You're Beautiful Baby

I Will Be There When You Need Someone To Run With
I Will Be There When You Need Someone To Dance With
I'm Your Lover When The Skies Turn Grey
Everyday Til Its Beautiful Baby

Oh
Til Its Beautiful
Til Its Beau-Ooh Ooh Baby
Til Its Beautiful Baby

I'm A Butterfly When I'm In Your Hands
You Can Turn The Pavement Into White Sand
You Can Make A Moment A Memory In A Glance
And I Cant Believe Anyone Else
And Everybody's Talking
But You Always Keep Shining
You Never Stop glistening Babe
And I Never Thought That Anyone Could Love Someone
So Much That They Give Up On Everything

[Chorus:]
I Will Be There To Take Care Of You
I Will Be There When You Cry Babe
I Will Be There When You Need Someone To Tell You
That You're Beautiful Baby

I Will Be There When You Need Someone To Run With
I Will Be There When You Need Someone To Dance With
I'm Your Lover When The Skies Turn Grey
Everyday Til Its Beautiful Baby

I'm Your Superman Baby
Yea
Your Superman Baby
Oooh

Til It's Beautiful
Til It's Beautiful
Til Its Beautiful Baby
Your Superman Babe
Til It's Beautiful
Til Its Beau-Ooh Ooh Baby
Til Its Beautiful Baby

There's A Million People Underneath The Sun
That Can Find A Million More And Never Find The One
There's A Girl Who Did This And A Socialite
Was On Magazines And Was The Shy Type Baby
But I'm A Superman Thanks To Lois Lane
Kissed Away The Problems When I Went Insane
Fished Me From The Bottom When I Lost My Name
And I Never Thought Anyone Could Ever Mean So Much So Much

[Chorus:]
I Will Be There To Take Care Of You
I Will Be There When You Cry Babe
I Will Be There When You Need Someone To Tell You
That You're Beautiful Baby

I Will Be There When You Need Someone To Run With
I Will Be There When You Need Someone To Dance With
I'm Your Lover When The Skies Turn Grey
Everyday Til Its Beautiful Baby

Til It's Beautiful
Til It's Beautiful
Til Its Beautiful Baby
Your Superman Babe
Til It's Beautiful
Til It's Beautiful
Til Its Beautiful Baby